Noodle in a hay stack.

Recently, well, in the past four to five months, a lot of change has happened in my life. I became a college student. I broke up with my long term boyfriend. I did a lot of things that were just out of my character. I started to drink and have sex. Two things that i used to be completely against. I also started to swallow up my pain. I wasn’t letting anyone in… which was another out of the ordinary thing for me. I am a big believer on letting others help you just like you should always help others when they are in need. I stopped going to church. I stopped praying. Even though i feel i have had my ins and outs with God over the years, this time i felt like i had completely decided to go to an entirely different universe. I was crying every single night for at least an hour.. Then sometimes during the day.. And then it was a few times a day. I finally decided to get help. Started going to counseling, and eventually ended up on an antidepressant. I never in my wildest dreams thought that i would ever be in so much pain. Never thought that i would hurt so much that i would completely fall down and not be able to get back up… They say that time heals all wounds. I believe that to the fullest. In my case, it really has started to help. Im no longer dwelling over the wrongs i have done. No longer wasting my time thinking of the things i would change if i could. There is no point. The past is the past for a reason. Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom before you can make your way to the top for good. We are all sinners and all have our problems. But the one thing we must remember is that perfection is not around us. It never will be. Thats the price of being Human.